Sometimes i vainly wish i had a little bending phase than this totally broken one.. but funny thing is..its really random thought..reality  is  i come so far that i feel i never can if i given chance too.. cz im practiced to pain than smiles.. it been my days..always tend to catch back my tears.. happy days scares me cz in an unexpected corner it waits to attack me, my forever companion "the pain", my curse from birth and i cant take anyone there, i prefer to drown alone!!thats the reason i guess no one can love me, their fate when entangled with me,  mine will bring them misfortune..