I wish i could have been made of steel.. so that every  time when you feel to slap me when your chain of moodswings snap.. i could bear the pain.. but, my weakness was not made of my past actions.. its just cz i was again trying to find a ray of hope through only one thing i may surrender, unfortunately there is only you left.. should i crawl back to my cave like past months.. it took me alot effort to shut me down then.. now i cn realize it can never be hope.. i failed..i need my mask back.. were i could hide for ever.. im sorry that i failed by pretending  to be okey.. i dont think any more i can find my light!!