Its just approaching again.. that threatening feel.. abandonment..  screaming voices in head saying "you are a big zero".. i feel my inner soul collapsing.. suffocated in the four walls..reaching for any hand.. but.. all i find is darkness.. pitch black.. my demons standing infront of me.. countless.. i want to shout and ask why me??silence....i know all im going to get is a tortured life with painful breaths..i wish i could end this drama.. loneliness and endless bargaining i do to cope up with the daily shits to hold my self survive every single moment.. i wish i could just "Die"!!