dad

What I am acting..y I'm ..whn you r not there to smile

dad

Some departures will give you a sudden fullstop for ur life and make you forget y do you even exist..for me that was yours father..still wondering how I spend this 6months with out hearing you are safe out here some whr..missing you is not a word,but the reality I struggle every moment I take breathe..cz your princess lost her wings with you

Love is some time like shit,while eating it's a tasty food..if digestion is not proper its smells..so bad..even the people near u can get the faulty smell..

No relationship is safe in one person's hands..it need equal commitments..if your partner is have to find a 3rd person for comfort,did you ever thought whose fault it is? If you were there to comfort y any need other person? So falut is yours..if you can't strengthen your relation after you fall in love or after getting married ..never blame the other person for not trying hard the same.even for a clap two hands needs..

Why it has always to be thou my loudest cry..which peels my whole skin and makes me vulnerable inside-out by the forbidden boomerang effect ..why my soul can't find my peace while after trying all the paths good or bad to keep thou behind,still I suffocating for the same stage through all these years the same way..afraid to admit afraid to let go afraid to exist afraid for rejection..but all I can do is to drown in to an ocean of silence by force, closing all my senses which otherwise may find a path some how crossing all limit to reach back to thy life..And this all for what..knowing and feeling always unwanted and unwelcomed..to the damn strangeness..craving for something never actually existed in thy lyf..but which always was my reason for living..thou can now be my loudest cry caught in my throat..never able to come out never able to go down in heart..to make me realise nothing to exists..in this fake world..

As much I want to be cared  or be a priority to someone atleast for some time,more my fear wakes up like a snake and squeezing me tight ,suffocate me for breath again and again reminding me the failures in all type of relations through out my life,by abandoning me at last not less than a trash than any,instead of all my painful efforts.

If my tears can't bring out the light in you,my silence can never..some things in life start with ambiguity and ends with the same..like us.. like it was always dark night..but so called expectations divided it to stages-some was real darkness..some I was blindfolded..some you been..well hell was there already..accepting it may not reduce pain..but atleast will not increase false expectations..